skin & bone (we were liars)

the rain starts falling two days before we do
and it doesn't stop–
it never will.
when you laugh,
it's all blurry to me, but the sound of it rings in my ears
for two days
and it doesn't stop–
it never will.

we fell into a kind of madness, cat and mouse
and eventually, it ate us away
and we let it.
we waited and waited for the magic to happen,
believed and prayed and hoped with all we had
but if we believed already, why did we need to pray at all?
we didn't.
we never did.

and the rain fell onto the burning buildings,
set us on fire,
they all thought this was rebirth– a  phoenix rising from the ashes
but we never came back,
i don't think we wanted to.

your eyes, as i see them now,
reflect all the stars in the sky
as we lie in the car,
the radio playing tunes we haven't heard in years
your eyes, as i see them now,
reflect all the sorrows in the world
and for the first time in eons,
i feel truly alive.

we never came back from the dead,
and the world moved on, forgot
and we watched it all go on without us,
and fell in love with not existing.

you believe you're happy
when the car screeches to a halt in front of you
and that's what i think too
and you're smiling, smiling wide–
but you want to be somewhere else
anywhere but here
it's the middle of the night, love,
there are no stars, no clouds
and you want to be somewhere else, darling, and that's okay
here are the roses i bought for you anyway.

and if it had rained a little earlier,
maybe if i hadn't taken too long,
there'd be no fire
and we wouldn't be gone
but rain late it did
and i did take too damn long
and there was a fire, there was
and we burnt down to the fucking ground.

the voice on the radio sings a song from three years ago
and i cry,
i cry my heart out
and you don't stay, you never do
you don't smile or laugh or do any of the things you're supposed to
and it doesn't hurt me at all, i swear it doesn't
my wounds are all taped up,
scratches gone,
love vanished in thin air.

i'm wasting my youth away
i feel finite sometimes
there's nothing here to drink, nothing to do but be a fool
i think i'm wasting my youth away on you.

the rain doesn't stop falling
and it never will
and the tunes from three years ago fade away into nothing.