stuck between my teeth

i'm something stuck between your teeth 

and lost and nothing more 

you found yourself three years ago 

it makes no sense to hold me close. 

i play with the shadows that follow you in the dark 

and tell myself it's you 

but it never will be. 

and it never will be okay– 

life will come crashing down on me again 

and i will crumble, fall as you watch: 

i've been seen, 

left unseen. 

we listen to the same music 

but we listen to it when we're far apart 

and it doesn't remind us of each other, 

even though i wish it did 

because everything reminds me of you these days– 

it's pathetic, i've been told 

to leave you alone and fly away. 

if it was up to me 

i'd love to believe 

that you, too, are a little lost 

a little unhappy, a little messed up in the head

i'd believe that you think of me sometimes 

and know in my heart that you don't 

because you're not lost 

instead, you're clean 

you're bright, you're light 

you're everything i want to be. 

 and here we are, it's the end of time 

 we didn't say a word,

 we didn't fight. 

 silently

 we just drifted together 

 towards the violent grey sky filled with clouds, 

 towards non-existence.