golden age

on rainy days like this, my heart
feels full of everything and nothing at all
and it almost bleeds
but it cries instead
and i stumble when i stand
so i fall.

and when you come,
it's in a rush like the wind
and i never see it, don't see what you're going to mean to me
you're invisible, i'm still on the cold ground
i'm a flightless bird
flapping my wings against the wind
until i'm nothing at all,
until i'm still and unmoving.

and my skies slowly turn
from grey to blue
i never saw you coming,
never thought i'd love you.

and i'm in the midst of a battle
the sun sinks low
i'm watching as you fight
watching as my armour falls
watching as a fire rises
from nothing at all.

i tell myself in whispers at midnight
that you're not a mistake
it's not hard to believe it
when everything's so vivid and bright
we're golden– no sorrows, no ache.

and when you leave,
you leave your scarf and coat behind
and the days of the rain when you couldn't tell if i had tears in my eyes
and you leave the smile on your face behind and take mine
you leave me the memories of cold winter days and glasses of wine.

and we stood there once, with the crowds calling our names
you took my face in your hands
promised you'd never look back.
we stood there once until the wind, it knocked me down
i know i said i wouldn't change for you
but i'll never be the same again.

inspired by the album 'red' by taylor swift.